As I sit here at 10:20 at night, while my family is asleep, and with a cat on my lap, I am filled with a sense of peace...or is that exhaustion?  On top of my super busy schedule (I'm sure I'll go into that in another post), I have decided to go back to blogging my thoughts out here.  I have been on a wellness journey for the last year.  However, only recently do I think I have found the magic potion to actually get me there.

I always had this notion that I was thin when I was married without every trying.  I mean, I spent most weekends drinking and having fun with friends, eating whatever I wanted.  That means I didn't try to maintain or lose weight, right?!  It wasn't until recently that I realized that I worked out at the gym about 4 days a week for an hour or more.  Funny I would forget that, don't you think?

So, since my son was born, a whopping 4 years ago, I have struggled with getting myself back to where I can fit into those same clothes that I did that year I was married.  (Yes, I still have them...locked in a plastic storage container until I can wear them again.)  I feel like I've tried everything.  I've done various home workout programs, tried running again, and crash dieted to no avail.  So, what was missing?

The balance I had then.  I was young, blinded by love, energetic, and apparently disciplined enough to workout a lot and eat right (most days).  These days, I think there's one thing that will fix it all.  No.  There's no one thing that is going to make this right.  There are many moving parts that all have to be aligned.  So, this is my way of bringing you all along on my journey as I try to re-center myself and learn from my own darn mistakes!

To show that I am keeping myself accountable, I started today!  I ran for about the third time in 2 weeks on my Zero Runner.  However, I beat a goal I've had for myself for a long time!  I ran 3 miles in 30 minutes!  Boo-Yah!

It was supposed to be a 30, but my lack of ability to edit photos makes it a 0-3.  Either way, I did it!